Day 4

Today I rode my bike to work with Brendan. Then I rode all around downtown. These days, there are few things I love more than riding my bike. I have always enjoyed riding but now it's not just riding, it's a little bit of freedom from everything else.


Later I practiced Ashiatsu on two friends. I did great on the first one but the second one was really smooth and had a great flow front and back. I was able to keep my mind quiet throughout both and it felt amazing.

Tonight I sat watching my eldest son sleeping. Not in the usual way of undying adoration, but in a way that felt new. He seemed different. It made me wonder, "who are you?'  I think in the bible it says something about children not being our own. I think I understand these wise words tonight, my children are gifts and I am only here to help them grow as best I can. I guess I already new that, but somehow I didn't know it on the same level of consciousness that I know it on now. I have an understanding of separateness, or independence, and it makes it seem as if I can see him through new eyes...

so I decided that was my meditation.



It made me wonder, what does it really mean to meditate?

So I looked it up.

Meditate;-verb

1. to engage in thought or contemplation; reflect.

2. to engage in transcendental meditation, devout religious contemplation, or quiescent spiritual introspection.

In short,  I had a wonderful bike ride and the freedom it allows, I gave two incredible Ashiatsu treatments, I saw my son with new eyes and I learned that I was meditating all along! Clarity here I come!

~M